It’s Always About
Balance
Most problems are created by imbalance. Wow, I know that sounds simplistic, but think
about it: too much of something, too little of something, overfunction or
underfunction, underkill or overkill and in one direction or the other a
problem is likely to develop. This
principle applies to brain chemistry, body chemistry, relationship dynamics,
behaviors, habits, and, well, even the very functions of the universe that
enable life on this lovely blue planet. Yet we
have often tried to live as though we are exempt from, above, or outside of the
reach of the principle of balance, overindulging or under-supplying
ourselves. And then we get in
trouble.
Wouldn’t it be nice if we came with a set of gauges that
would alert us to imbalance? Actually,
we do. These “gauges” include our bodies—our five senses, our feelings, and our
relationships. It is important learn to
pay attention to these indicators of imbalance or we will end up with—you
guessed it—problems. If you ignore that
red “oil” light on your dashboard long enough you will end up with a dead
vehicle. If you ignore that strange new
lump on your body long enough you may end up with a dead you. If you ignore your relationship problems long
enough you may end up with an unhappy marriage or no marriage at all.
Don’t take false comfort from your old pal Denial. He will tell you that that symptom you are
experiencing is not so bad, not so big, not important, your imagination, your
partner’s problem, or that there is no
problem at all! (Even in this it is
important to practice balance. To
catastrophize every small thing can be paralyzing and is a distortion on the
“too much” side of imbalance.) I think
that “reading our gauges” is a tricky skill to learn and practice. Good parenting should have taught us such skills throughout our childhoods, but
for many of us—probably most of us—this didn’t really happen. In fact, if we grew up in a dysfunctional
family system we may have become adaptively skillful at ignoring signals from
our bodies, minds, emotions, and spirits. It was just too painful to stay
present and feel. It is as though many
of the important sensory wires have been cut—or we severed them ourselves—and
there just isn’t any signal getting through any more.
Part of the work of recovery is reconnecting these vital
input lines; lines that can alert us to damaging imbalances, unhealthy
relationships, and with our need to employ wisdom and self-care. It is a process and will definitely include
some pain. You know, like when your foot has fallen asleep and then goes into
that crazy needles and pins phase as your nerves hook your leg back up to your
brain. We need pain! A great example is leprosy. Huh?
Yes, the truly dangerous thing about leprosy is that lepers lose
sensation in their extremities, thus no pain sensation, thus no signals
alerting them to the fact that they have injured themselves, thus
infection. We may have adaptively
blocked our ability to feel pain in order to survive, but staying disconnected
with it will inevitably send us—unawares—toward some form of hurtful
imbalance.
The good news is that in coming back into balanced contact
with our bodies, emotions, and spirits also reconnects us to our joy and
pleasure. You see, we can’t dampen and
tune out parts of our feelings without dampening all our overall emotional
experiences—including the pleasant ones.
We become generally numb. This can lead to seeking more intensity and,
well, you probably already know the kind of problems that can lead to. We are wired to experience a full range of
feelings—in balance. To lose touch with
them or trade most of them in for one or two (like anger or lust) is a sad
state of imbalance indeed. Don’t settle for an imbalanced, chaotic, or
numbed out existence. It will definitely
take some work and endurance on your part to heal and make your way back to the
land of the truly alive but don’t you think it could be worth it? There are many of us on the other side of
recovery who respond with a hearty “Amen!”
Copyright 2015 John D. Deyo, M.A., LMFT